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I'm writing drunken essays. (2/3) They will be honest and beautiful!!. I will spell check them before I hand them in tomorrow. I'd rather I were myself and not get in, than lie and have to hold up the charade!

ps does anyone know how that word is spelled? the one from the south park episode where they're like "hey write an essay for me" and then all the Mexican's write their essays. But its Spanish. and its not spelled like that. Help me out, DANG!

Leadership

Hello there!

Oh my! I had an interesting weekend. So on Thursday I went and had dinner with my brother, sister-in-law (Jen) and my father! It was good times with nice chats and I love those people! Then I went to see a scary movie?? In the theater?? with some crazy people!! That was also good times, but unfortunately not as scary as I had hoped it would be. then there was socializing with some funky new kids at "the place to be" on a thursday night.

Friday I woke up early and went to a leadership conference. It was so intensely disappointing!! And it was an overnight conference with a contract where the participants are not allowed to leave the hotel property during the conference. We played BS and mafia Friday night and I am the best liar, and incredibly strategic according to several unsuspecting new friends. I'm clearly more of a leader than they had imagined, and I'm frankly a bit insulted they had such low standards and high arrogance of themselves, and wasted so much of my time. I finally escaped Saturday night.

Sunday I worked a bunch in the morning and then went straight to my brother's place. We went to Bloomington and had lunch with Jen's brother (Garrett) and his girlfriend (Morgan) at the Olive Garden. What a place!! I hadn't been there in over a year. Then we went to Garrett's apartment so him and Morgan could look at the wedding pictures the professional photographer had taken. They were delivered in a huge book with 9 or 12 (I can't remember which) on a page. There are about 890 of them. Then we left and went to an oyster festival! I got to chit chat with people I met when I was 10 and mostly didn't recognize me. They're all great people though, so it was cool. This festival is put on every year by the owner of this ski and dive shop (like scuba diving). We know the owners because they run a ski and dive club and my parents have been on several trips with them. I only went on one, and then my family sort of fell apart (but that's a different story). So I decided I might take scuba lessons despite the fact I'm terrified of water. I think I could totally succeed. We ran into an old family friend and her husband, and went over to her house to visit her dog and show her the wedding photos too (she was at the wedding). On our way back into town Tony Jen and I stopped at Chipotle for burritos. DELISH.

This morning I discovered that I had left half a carton of (lactose free) ice cream on the counter Friday morning before I left for the conference. Yes I ate ice cream for breakfast, and now I sort of think it may have been a mistake because it got all melty and slimy on my counter while I was gone. Then I went to the mall in search of I don't know what and ended up stumbling across a clearance bin with a plaid flask in it. So now I own that. I also bought a new barbell for my latest piercing and I changed it when I got home, but I'm not sure I like it. Its black with a CZ stud in one of the balls. end story

kisses kisses!

Claire

Lock it Up and throw away the Key

I bought a Locket! It is a large one. Big enough to fit a marshmellow into (to give you an idea of the size). I want to put something suspicious in it. Any suggestions?

Kisses!!

wooo

Dear you :)

Isn't it weird to think about where we've been? How strange it is to realize we lived in Sweden for nearly a year. WHAT THE FUCK WAS I DOING?? What a strange decision I feel like that was for me. You always seemed to have good reason/intention. Ian and I were reminiscing and I was thinking how nice it would be to be near one of my Uppsala friends. I have no roommates here and no one to cook with! Anyway, I miss you bunches and I'll check in again in a bit.

kramar!

Claire

"Expect nothing, live frugally on surprise."

So I have been feeling ultra secretive lately. So much more than usual! Which is an abnormally high level anyway (or so I hear). I don't really know who reads this. So I'm not going to go about shouting all the things I have to say to just anyone who will stumble across this. My life is going really well, and so many good things have happened this past week.

"When you discover your mission, you will feel its demand. It will fill you with enthusiasm and a burning desire to get to work on it."

So I have decided that for halloween I would like to be a bumblebee, but I don't want to be the normal sexy bumblebee I want to be a largely round awkwardly bumping into everything bumblebee with the inability to realize it isn't a sexy bumblebee. I want to flirt with everyone.

"Aerodynamically the bumblebee shouldn't be able to fly, but the bumblebee doesn't know that so it goes on flying anyway."

In other news I'm really into several songs right now that I feel like give a really good impression of where my life's at. So I encourage you to check them out!

Owl City- Fireflies (song)
Adrienne Bailon- Big Spender (song)

Other things I'm really into right now:
Ghost Hunters- Season 5 (TV series)
White tattoos

New Week

I cannot believe it has been a week since my last post! What in the world have I been doing?? I will tell you!!

Well... I will tell you a little bit. I will tell you that right now, I love pumpkin pancakes, and you. I love you. In addition to that right now I'm really jiving on the musical stylings of Metric, Damien Rice and Frank Sinatra. Also I've been watching a whole bunch of the TV series Bones. Season 5 is kind of super sweet, and making me feel romantic and silly! Right now the weather outside is delicious! Its just above freezing, and its slightly windy. It makes me feel sad and nostalgic, and it overwhelms my heart with joy. Its like a big gulp of cold sweet water. It reminds me of Chirstmas time, when I get that feeling that there is so much love in the world, and even though sometimes I'm all alone in the cold in the middle of the night in the empty parking lot of a 24 hour grocery store, there is so much possibility in the world, I can't help but feel amazing. I felt like that tonight. Thats what this weather always does to me.

There is of course a lot more going on in my life. I went on a date this weekend and it was my Uni's homecoming! I'm possibly planning a trip to Thailand, and my possible future in countries not named anything America. In addition to that I'm still employed and somehow still in school. So whoopie! I will give you more details on these things later though for now I would like to sleep.

xoxo Claire

wooo

Okay! So here is the deal: I miss all of you tons. Where are you these days?? Why are you not with me? So I will give you a list of my favorite things, and tell you what I did this weekend. Will you do the same for me?

Favorites this week:
Snow Patrol- Chocolate (song)
La Roux- Colourless Colour (song)
Once (movie)
Buttercup Festival (web comic)
YOU!

So I took some time away this weekend, and I looked into my future. I decided what I want to do and I made an action plan! This (not) surprisingly did not yield solid results, but I feel much better with the plethora of ideas now floating around my head. I'm looking for an internship abroad this spring, and I'm applying to a master's program in Lund Sweden for next fall. And then I worked a whole bunch! WooHoo!

xoxo Claire

Shake that

This really makes me think of you.

How inappropriate!!

I know this is terrible, but its so terrible that I almost die laughing everytime I watch it!

YOU THERE!

I WANT YOU!
I feel SO GOOD, like the whole world is magical! I love this season. The weather here is sooo amazing. It's like spinning under a clear night sky in a slightly too baggy sweatshirt. Its comfortable and beautiful and overwhelming. It's rainy and about 50 F (~10 C) Its so windy I feel like I'm gonna get blown away, and maybe I wouldn't mind if I did. I've been thinking alot about my future. And I've decided I want it! I'm excited for it, and it feels right this time! I'm searching for internships all over the world starting either in January or May. Do you know of one? Sometimes I think about why I'm not in a relationship. Maybe its because I don't want to have something I can lose so easily. It was painful to lose the last one I had, so I want to make the right decision this time!
kisses kisses
LOVE Claire

Apple picking

Hey hey!
Oh my goodness I totally lied! How not surprising is that!?? Anyway, so I just forgot that I went apple picking at my favorite orchard with Campus Girl Scouts! I climbed apple trees and ate apple donuts, and got pumpkins (they also have a pumpkin patch) and made a pumpkin pie from scratch! Oh how I love pumpkin pie! I only remembered this after writing that last post and thinking "hmm... aren't there some really awesome pictures of me out there somewhere? I wonder where those are... OH RIGHT they're on my camera" hahaha

Life: general

Hey there!
I'm going to tell you really boring things, because I have no exciting things to say, but I still want you to know that I care.

So I got sick. It was totally lame! And since the swine flu is going around like crazy here my dad insisted that if I got sick I should go to the doctor (he heard a story about this guy who died from having swine flu and his only sympton was a headache and three days later he just up and died!). So I got sick, and I was pretty sure it wasn't flu-ish at all, but he was quite insistent, so I went, and the doctor (as usual!) had no idea what's wrong with me, gave me vague instructions to take some ibuprofen and wait until it goes away. (I have a long history with this guy having no idea what's wrong with me and telling me Ibuprofen and time will cure all that's ailing me) That's the most dramatic thing to happen in the past week. Not that exciting huh?

My brother and his WIFE are back from their honeymoon and it seems like they had a good time and are enjoying being married. They're so good together.

In other news my hair is getting to an awkward length, where if I let it go any longer I'm gonna have a mullet, and the difference in length brought about by the mohawk is even making the top look spastic (not to mention the curls are really getting out of control). So I'll be getting a haircut soon hopefully. I'm trying to grow it out, but apparently its a long process.

I'm trying super hard to save up money from my job so I can travel (December? May?) but its hard I always end up spending it on food. Food seems like a silly thing. I don't really get hungry, but I know I should eat, so I buy lots of it, and I cook, and I spend quite a bit of time eating. Its so tedious! If something is particularly delicious I enjoy it, but mostly I can't tell. You can probably imagine how frustrating this is. If I gained any weight in Sweden its all gone now :( and I'm back to being super thin. Oh how I miss Swedish potatoes.

I've also been rock climbing! and making new friends! I miss all my Uppsala friends though. What fun we had! Americans are so different. Such a challenge. Anyway, I have to go sleep for the benefit of my health. Miss you tons! Puss och kram.
Love Claire